Going back…

This Thursday I went back to my old high school. This time on my own to give a presentation to a class full of students who are getting ready to graduate. While I was presenting I remembered what it was like to sit in their seats. I took that very same class two years ago and heard a similar presentation on blogging and never in a million years did 17-year-old me believe that I would be blogging let alone win awards for it and then be giving talk on how to blog.

Below is about as wild as I got. Semi-Formal and I was stone cold sober. I guess another piece of advice I would give to myself at 17 is, there will be lots of time to get drunk and not remember nights. Enjoy these ones while you can because everything is about to change.

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My amazing twin and I. Miss you, darling ❤

It made me realize just how much life changes when you leave the comfortable halls of high school. If there is anything I would say to 17 year old me or to any of the 17-year-olds sitting in that class Thursday morning listening to my talk on how to blog it would be this: let the world hear your voice. It is an amazing thing to say what you feel. It is empowering and freeing. Trust me, it is.

I was the kid who has always loved to write but has always been terrified of sharing my voice and my work with the world. In my classes I rarely shared my work and if I did it was usually only with the teacher and only because I had no choice. Then college happened and all of a sudden I was in a new environment with new people and I realized that eventually if I was going to be successful I was going to have to share my work. Then this blog happened and it gave me an outlet to do so and slowly develop my voice. I have and now it isn’t so scarring in fact it has become therapeutic.

So to all the 17-year-olds never ever be afraid to share your voice and try something new. Your perspective is important and needed. Your experiences are unique and deserved to be shared. As I writer I ask you to share your gift with the world, let us learn from your mistakes with you. Let us grow with you and let us experience along side you. There is nothing more powerful in this world than an empowered voice.

Blood, Sweat and Tears.

Friday I finally finished up my first year of college.

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So obviously I am very stoked. Finally I can sleep in, binge watch Netflix and not feel guilty about it later, did I mention sleep in? But at the same time I will miss it. I am lucky to have been hired to do full time work in my field right after first year but I will definitely miss going to class and being as crazy busy as I was. This summer will be forcing me to grown and mature a lot.

This year has taught me so so so much. Yes, school and the formal learning taught me a lot like it was suppose to do. But I learned so much more about myself.

This year I met a boy who tests me in ways nobody ever has. I would imagine any girl who falls head over heals for anyone in the military can relate to what I’m saying. It’s HARD. The uniforms are wonderful but at the end of the day they have to leave when they are told to. Yes that also means that you could be sitting in a movie theater and all of a sudden an email comes in and he has to go back to base or school or where ever he is told to.

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It hurts sometimes and all you want to be mad but you can’t because you in a way signed up for that too. I got lucky though. I get to love a man who is better than the best and who treats me better than anyone ever could even when those dreaded emails arrive or another training course takes him away.

On top of worrying and occasional stress surrounding the Boyfriend, school has always been a very important part of my life and in college that equals stress!

Between annoying unmotivated group memebers, ever changing work schedules, and the endless list of demanding projects and deadlines, the stress was huge and mounting. The work never really seemed to end. Blood, (yes, blood. paper cuts are NOT fun) sweat and so many tears seemed to be poured all over the year.

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Thankfully the hard work has started to pay off and I start my first full time job on Tuesday. So as I am starting a new chapter in my work life; I am now going to start a new section of my blog dedicated to my experiences this summer and into the next school year!

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